Feeling.

This is an old poem, that I found today.. I kinda like it.

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It's not your memory that haunts me,
I'm completely over you.
It's the realization that you crushed me,
And there's nothing I can do.

Somehow, you convinced me to trust you..
That's when I began to fall.
I gave you the most fragile parts of me,
And in return you broke them all.

You're the only one who knew the real me,
Yet I lost myself in you.
Every moment that we shared together,
I thought your words were true.

I now know that I didn't love you,
But I loved who you'd pretend to be.
Your very existence makes my heart ache,
Though not in longing; in pity.

To have given you such power,
Was a fault upon my part.
Still I have grown strong, despite you,
And you no longer hold my heart.

Thankful.

"Where there are friends, there is wealth." -Titus Muccius Plautus

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In the spirit of Thanksgiving, I want to take the time to acknowledge all the friendships I've been blessed with.
Friends are the people that hold you together, push you forward, and lift you up. Without my friends, I would've crumbled a long time ago.
Honestly, I consider those people some of the greatest miracles I've ever experienced.

People are in our lives for a reason. Sometimes they teach us how to love, and sometimes they teach us how to lose.
It's okay for friendships to grow and change and develop.
Occassionally, we get too focused on what the future holds, and forget to be grateful for the people we have in our lives right now.

Friends should be people that you love. People that make you feel infinite.
Those are the kinds of friends I have.

When I'm upset, they can tell right away. It's almost as if my friends know me better than I know myself sometimes.
They protect me. Teach me. Help me.

My friends encourage and challenge me. They pray for and with me. They hold me accountable to my faith. They help me discover Truth in ways I never could have imagined.

One of the hardest things to learn, though, is that not everyone can or should be your friend. Friendships require commitment. They require connection. And they require care.

Friendships aren't always meant to last forever, either.
Sometimes God sends us people only for a season, yet other times He gives us people that we'll keep forever. It's a hard proccess, letting go. But sometimes we need to lose the people holding us back in order to receive someone so incredible, you don't understand how you lived without them.

If you have true friends, don't let them go. Don't take advantage of them. Never forget to tell your friends exactly how much they mean to you.
These are the people that shape you. You shape them.
You're in this TOGETHER.

Life is faaaaaaaantastic.
Don't you agree? I mean, honestly.. Things have never been better!

The last few weeks, God has been moving so much in my life and in the lives of those around me. I'm experiencing all kinds of things that I never dreamed would happen to me.

I've gotten some incredible new people in my life.

Nathan is the absolute best friend I have ever had. I mean that.
Emily and Joslyn know how to make me smile no matter what.
Wes is one goofy kid, but he's great!


There's just so many blessings that I can't explain.
I'm insanely insanely insanely excited for January to get here.


I see all these people around me, struggling. All I want to do is reach out and help them.
I know God is confirming His calling in my life.
I'm so ready; Life is good. :)